A poetic exploration of the light and shadows that one woman with undiagnosed postpartum OCD experienced as she entered motherhood. Lucy’s thoughts are also shared in an illustrated blog called Mama’s Got Stickies (Substack) in the hopes of supporting others through similar experiences.
“My daughter was pushed back inside then exposed and pulled from me.
She did not make a sound, but she was alive. Then, just as violently, I began to disappear."
Episode 6: And with that,
Does anyone really understand? How could anyone possibly understand?
This is a whisper, an urging, a challenge, a cry that I hear often from parents who have lost their child.
When you lose your child, you lose yourself a little bit. This is Xenia’s Story, in her own words.
