Finally, we gave her the bottle after she was off oxygen.
But she couldn’t swallow well. It looked like she was choking or in pain. She grimaced.
The nice nurse thought that she might be in pain due to the traumatic intubation.
She was barely putting on weight after losing some initially.
We counted every little drop of milk she was able to drink. Even half an ounce was an achievement.
The last night in the NICU she was taken off the monitors and we were allowed to take her into a room and stay there overnight. Nesting they called this.
I was so nervous to not have those monitors. I was so used looking at the oxygen saturations and making sure she is OK.
The next morning, we took her home after the car seat test – this tiny little thing barely 5 lbs almost disappeared into the car seat.
Still spitting and coughing when she was fed….we were hoping this was all a bad dream and that in a few days she will catch up and we will have our healthy little baby girl.
Life had other plans…..